I haven't updated my blogspot in a long time, I guess it's time to do so now.
It's kind of a more appealing idea for me right now rather than working on my BIZ1 paper, which is due in a few hours. I'm a rebel like that.
I supposed I should have just posted some stuff here rather than my Tumblr. But, it's clearly not my fault when people assume that they're the ones that I'm talking about on my posts. I just have to point out that it's quite irritating when people think that everything is about them.
It's not. Geez, people. Take a hint. The world does not revolve around you alone.
My blog is my blog, and I write whatever I want. It is not anyone's place to say that I can't post this or that. It is not my fault if you assume that everything I put there is about you.
*le sigh*
I'm sorry. It's been awhile since I last posted anything here and yet I rant and rant. I am terribly sorry. It's just kinda nice to let out your frustrations once in awhile. I mean, I thought I was completely over it, but now that I think about it, I guess I'm not. I've moved on a bit, but completely? No, not really. It's an impossible feat.
In lieu of past events, let me tell you a story of what really happened.
There was a friend of mine... Well, we had a thing for awhile, but it didn't work out. That's what he said. I was really hurt and at one point I tried to kill myself. Well, not really. It was a rather weird feeling. I just wanted to hurt myself physically so that I won't feel the pain inside.
I wasn't able to slit my wrist because my friend, Carla, kept texting me the whole time to not do anything stupid or it's friendship over. It was a bit intriguing, the fact that I'm terribly scared of any physical pain, yet at that point in time, I just didn't care. I guess the pain inside was a bit too much that the being scared part was completely enveloped by it. Looking back now, it was completely stupid and I'm glad I had my friends who stopped me before I did it.
I was also appalled when I posted a pretty long post on Tumblr about it and so many people replied and even sent me some love in my inbox. :)
Anyway, that friend and I became... well, friends. I was still recovering and we also promised that we'll be there for each other no matter what. But, that didn't last very long since he just went and assumed that I was talking about him in a post of mine on Tumblr.
FYI, I was talking about another guy. I do not know why he thought that I could never move on to another guy. I went out with this guy, who was about 2-3 years older than me, once. It was nice, but I felt like it wasn't going to work out so I ended it before it was gonna go any further. He said it's fine and told me thanks for telling him as soon as possible, he also added for me to not be a stranger and still keep in contact. I said yes, of course.
I waited for like a few weeks and he still did not even dare to chat with me. I tried talking to him but he was like a completely different person. So, I got frustrated and opted to write about him on Tumblr. I didn't mention his name, that's why my other friend thought that I was talking about him.
People nowadays. After that incident, I felt like he was avoiding me, so I asked him. Then he kept on whining and telling me he's sick and tired of drama. He's practically telling me that he's sick and tired of me. Cause, apparently, I'm full of drama. Well, if he talked to me when I was happy with my life rather than when I was sad, maybe I won't be so full of drama, right? It makes sense. After that, it was awkward moment from the days that I would encounter him in school to the point that we didn't talk anymore. I tried talking to him, but he assumed again that at one time I made a face at him when I didn't. So, I'm tired. I'm just really tired. I wanted to stay as friends with him, but I guess he's sick and tired of me. Maybe, if he didn't assume so much then it wouldn't have turned out this way. He doesn't know how much he's hurt me. I cried so much in that last chat that we had.
He already hurt me when it was in that point in time that we were more than friends, and then he also hurt me more when we were just friends. What is the point in continuing? I tried, didn't I? He said, I didn't? I did.
He's completely changed. I don't really know him anymore. I still have that night's chat. I haven't opened it for awhile now, now that I realize. But whenever I do see it when I browse some of my laptop's documents and I see the notepad icon, my heart skips a beat.
Terrible ending, yet again.
After awhile, I was able to go out and have fun with a couple of South friends. Went to the Rodriguez's Halloween party and got drunk for the first time ever, and went to Cuenca Park @ Ayala Alabang for the 11/11/11 Southbound Lantern Festival which was just absolutely pretty and magical. Both events I went to, I saw him. I tried to talk to him in the Halloween party, but he wouldn't talk to me. It's actually safe to say that he was avoiding me. It was so obvious.
I can't really do anything about that. If he thinks that I'm an obsessive girl with a lot of issues, then so be it. I found out that he's been twisting the stories and telling it to his best friend. I don't know how many people he told, I don't care anymore. I'm tired.
I lost some, I gain some. But I guess my happy days are over. There's nothing to look forward to now. I was really envious when the others went to the Cangs' house to play the Game of Thrones board game. God knows how much I wanted to play it. :( But I guess, it's back to school life for me. No more going out. No more. It's back to the same 'ol boring Monica. Completely forgotten because of a new face in the crowd. :(
#le sigh
This is such an emo post.
I'm tired. I don't event want to check for mistakes in this post of mine.
Since I bet no one reads this blog anymore, but me. I don't really care.
Bye.
Good morning.
Is it to optimistic to hope for better days? Can I hope for it? :(
Yes, yes. Hello there, Hell Week. Please leave me alone.
I think for some courses, their hell week or finals week span for well, a week.
For MMA students, on the other hand, it spans for about more or less a month.
Might I say that it has been a rather pain in the ass to render my CADVIS2 finals?
It took about 3-4 days to finish. Which wasn't nice at all, considering the fact that I was forced to
leave my computer AND my laptop on for that long a period.
I'm hoping that that shall never happen again.
Good news is that I now know how to use Adobe Premiere. Yay.
Oh yeah, before anything else.
I shall post a couple of pictures to preserve memory of what happened a little before 2011.
But before that, let me relate to you, my dear reader, a couple of things that happened through pixel text. Yes.
On the first week of December, I was either playing, procrastinating or painting.
What was I playing? I was playing some random games I downloaded for my PSP.
One game was Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep, and the other one was Harvest Moon.
Procrastinating... Well, not really. I mean I got to finish....
this. I don't think it's considered as procrastinating, if I finished this before everyone else did.
Watermark is a link to my Tumblr, btw.
Oh yeah, I also got to finish my 473 agonizing drawings for my 2DANIM2 class.
Yay. I never felt so darn accomplished in my entire life.
But yeah, I procrastinated after finishing these 2 subjects.
Moving on...
Painting. I finished painting my gifts for my friends, Carla, Gella, Khat & Nana.
Painting for Nana:
Painting for Khat:
Painting for Carla:
Painting for Gella:
Basically, these were painted on wood with acrylic paint, respectfully. I believe each took about
6-8 hours to make, except for the one for Nana with a butterfly silhouette.
It was a whole lot of hard work and a couple of backaches, but I think it all paid off. :)
Well, now. I still need to make a few more. Hello, term break. I shall be using you to paint some more. Nothing feels better than doing something you actually like. :)
Christmas Day
We had a couple of visitors at home. I made mango float with yummy grahams for the guests.
The guests comprised of Auntie Lucy and Ninong Nelson, my cousin, Candy, Uncle Lagamayo & his wife and our past maid & her newborn daughter. That's pretty much it.
It was fun, at first. But my mood shifted so quickly, that I hurried upstairs and just played with my PSP. :|
We went to hear mass at St. Peter at 9 pm. My cousin and I talked to an aunt that I've not seen for the longest of time. Time wasn't that cruel with her. Sure, she looks older, but her face says she's happy. Maybe, "Life wasn't that cruel with her," is more like it.
Oh yeah, 12/20/10.
Went to Robinson's Ermita to hang out with a couple of high school friends.
We watched The Frozen, which totally sucked.
It was horrible, really. Remind me not to let my friend pick the movie-to-watch-today next time. What a waste of 170 bucks.
12/26/10
Went to Tagaytay with my uncle, my uncle's wife, aunt, koko and my cousin.
Oh man, it was freezing there. I think that's even an understatement.
I was glad my aunt stopped me when she saw the sandals that I was originally wearing.
She told me to change my shoes when we were still at home. I am glad that I listened.
Funny thought, there's this new Robinson's Supermarket ala Hotel ala Town Square thing which was recently built there. A few blocks away, there's a new project of SM which is the SAME as Robinson's. :)) *le sigh* Well, competition is always there, it's a given... Especially for big companies.
Anyway, the part when we went to the horseback riding field was when my teeth started to chatter and my hands started to shake so badly my photos were horribly blurred.
I didn't exactly get a nice shot, even when I changed my cam's ISO to a regrettably high number. It was already dark out so I couldn't take nice picture if I don't use the built-in flash. But see, I hate the built-in flash. :/
About an hour later, we stopped by this hotel and drank a nice cup of hot choco there.
The place was nice, though we had to pay a whooping 400+ bucks on hot choco alone. Wow.
Anyway, that's about all I can say about my Tagaytay trip.
Moving on...
12/27/10
A splurge day that was planned by yours truly. Held at Glorietta-Greenbelt. Well, Greenbelt mostly.
Might I say that this day was absolutely fun?
Credits to Carla for the photo's, btw.
The day started with all of us miraculously early.
It was Me, then Carla, then Khat & Gella, Anton, then Sheena.
And yes, it was definitely a splurge day. A one time-big time thing for us, since most of us are pretty much tight on our budget.
We ate at Bubba Gump and ordered 5 big dishes. We actually couldn't finish it all.
We were already full, but we were still able to finish the dessert even so. Actually, we finished it in less than 5 minutes. :))
After that, we went to have a happy singing time at Red Box.
We didn't care if our throat hurt. It's been such a long time since we last went karaoke-ing. Really. I really missed it, considering the fact that about a year ago, we went karaoke-ing at Providence Tower almost every day.
Hahaa. Good times, gooddddd timesss.
And yes, well. That day was hella fun.
12/28/10
We went to Manila Ocean Park to celebrate Daddy's or my Uncle's birthday. The food was fine. Everything was okay. Got complimented by an artist that I had a good eye on art and stuff. :)
After that, I buried myself with work, effectively, finishing my WEBDEV2 finals and last homework.
Regards to Miguel for helping me out with the banner margins. :)
For New Year' Eve, I was only watching Star Trek on HBO, while everyone was either asleep or had their own business. I feel a tad bit lonely. :(
For the next few days, I was, again, buried with my final projects. See? Told you our hell week lasts more or less a month. Whoever made our schedule sucks so bad. I mean, how are you supposed to feel the need to celebrate when you still have finals on your mind. :/
Kinda stupid.
Today... or actually, yesterday.
I went to school and got a gift.
It was a cute little piggy bank cat dressed up in pink wool.
I found it ever so adorable that I couldn't help but squeal a couple of times.
I'm currently not feeling mighty well right now. I got a stomach ache and also a fever. meh. . Just got back from Lucban, Quezon. I shall summarize what happened there the past few days.
First day: Arrived at CSB main campus at 4 a.m. in the morning. Call time was 4:30 a.m. and it said in the itinerary that anyone who's not there by 4:30 a.m, shall be left behind. Of course, the itinerary was joking, and we waited for the others to arrive till 5:30 a.m. in the morning before we finally left the school. I forgot what time we arrived there at Lucban, but man, Laguna is such a big place. It's like, every place we passed through went by so fast except for Laguna. Like first 15 minutes we were looking out the window and we were in Laguna... The next 40 minutes, we look out the window and we were STILL in Laguna. Man.
We stayed at Patio Hotel and Restaurant. Might I say that it was an epic win for Carla cause she chose such a big room for the 5 of us. Anton and Juls were staying in the room across ours. The hotel was nice, clean and comfy. I'm actually planning on taking my family there one time. I read somewhere online that the biggest room there costs like 800+/day, which is exponentially fine since it's such a nice hotel. The itinerary was a FAIL because the weather was bad. We watched like 4 workshops and demos alike. My friends and I were actually so lazy to go to most of them that we kept on arriving late. Hehe. We practically pigged out then with junk food and vodka. That day was alright, I guess. Just hated the fact that we were suddenly grouped randomly. I was stuck with Turtol and some other people. Apparently, one of my followers in Tumblr knew me and finally got to talk to me. She's really nice but, a bit too quiet unlike her friend who I was talking to more than her.
Second day: The weather was, as always, bad and it was super cold that day. We went to this place where we had to climb up these 300 steps up the mountain(while raining heavily) to reach the Kamay ni Hesus. The place was nice. There was even a Noah's Arc retreat house there. I wasn't able to go there cause I was, back then, sticking to my group. So yeah, the way up was a bit tiring though it was nice. The way down on the other hand was a pain in the ass. It was slippery and since the stairs were inconsistent, it was hard to go down. Add the heavy rain to add more pain and suffering for all of us.
After that, we went to this Botanical Garden place. I had good time crossing the ever so shaky man-made bridge. We were about to go to the Botanical Garden when the rain started pouring like crazy. We were forced to take shelter under this old swing. Carla and Juls had couple of nice pictures while dancing in the rain.
Since the weather was turning bad to worse, the facilitators decided to take us back to the hotel. I hated the fact that we were only given 30 minutes to take a bath and rest for awhile. I wasn't able to take a bath. I mean... Dude, we're like 5 people in the room. How'd you expect us to finish taking a bath in 30 minutes? Turtol and I boarded the bus with the nice chairs at the back. Nice cause, the chairs at the back were all facing each other and there's a table in the middle. Really nice. We ate at this dampa place where the liempo and fish tasted absolutely fantastic that I opted, for the first time, for a second round. We reviewed some of the shots that other people took. I was happy that I didn't bring my cam, then. We went back to the hotel and I started feeling horrible. My tummy ached like crazy and my head, aching ever so badly. I took a bath, we played a couple of card games while Juls started making Coke Rum. We even had a Survivor vote-off. Gella was voted-off by Khat, Turtol and myself. Hahaha! Juls voted me off cause apparently, I couldn't catch little crabs. Random. Carla voted for Khat. Anyway, we even invited a couple of other people to join us. It was fun playing Killers with all of them, but a girl's gotta rest when a girl's gotta rest. So, I started crawling back to my bed whilst they were playing. Let me just say that that night produced many hangover people the next day. They finished drinking at 5 a.m. in the morning. Even the profs were drunk. Lol.
Third day: I felt weak, tired, in pain, feverish, etc. Like I said before, the other night produced many hangover people, the itinerary wasn't followed anymore because almost everyone's having trouble waking up. We were able to buy some souvenirs like broas, longganisa, etc. I had to ask Nana to buy mine cause I wasn't exactly feeling ecstatic. 2 hours later, we stopped over this gasoline station and took pictures for the whole PVW team. 2 more hours later and we stopped over this other gasoline station. I bought a Beef Parmigiani at Starbucks and a Pineapple juice at Select. We bid our farewells to Carla and Juls cause they were going to be picked up there. The whole trip was all about the series playing on the bus's monitor. The series, The Waking Dead, made my stomach lurch more than ever. I was so excited to go home. And finally, I was fetched up by my cousin in front of SDA. Thanks to Turtol for helping me with my many bags. *bow* I should rest now cause I have a fever. Meh. Good job, Mon. Good job.
Why hello there. Just had a very nice long talk with my AUTHOR1 prof. Apparently, there's like8 Photography profs who were kicked out of our school because of some reports. WOW.
Anyway, to other news.... November 23-24 consisted of us(Gella, Khat, Nana Sef & I) working on our practical test for VIDPRD2. The practical test: Watch Harry Potter 7, pick a scene from the film, then recreate it. Imagine our grief when we found out that we were to have another shoot, when we didn't borrow any sort of video equipment that time since our prof didn't tell us that we're gonna have a practical test. However, we were lucky enough to have borrowed 4 red heads, 2 video cams, a few stands and what not. The stands were quite useful cause we used it as a bar to our lovely tent. Oh la la ~
On with the story... We left the school at 10 p.m. and arrived at Las Pinas at about quarter to 11, if I reckon correctly. We were supposed to shoot at Gella's house there, but since she forgot and/or doesn't know where exactly it is... We were lucky that Nana's aunt was very welcoming and invited us to shoot there instead. Thank you, Nana's aunt, for taking care of us all the time. You are loved. ♥
The shoot was very tiring, although Gella and Khat were mostly the ones who were working on the set. I was, instead of helping out, chatting and webcam-ing with people. I did help out after awhile. We drank a cup of coffee, then Red Bull to stay awake. The set took like 4 hours of set-up to finish. We started shooting at about 2 a.m., I think? Anyway, we finished the shoot at about 7 a.m. Basically, we didn't sleep. Well, I didn't really sleep. Went back to Manila and arrived at school at about 9:20 a.m. Was a sit-in at August's PHOTOJOURNAL class, then went to watch The Prestige at the SDA theater on the 12th floor. The movie was awesome. I was confused at first, but as the film went by, I suddenly understood the few stuff that I was confused about. LOL. Lovely, there were like 5 people who tripped going up the theater stairs. I wish they'd open the stair-lights, or whatever it's called. There was even this gay who tripped like 3 times and he/she was super noisy that this girl got angry and told him to keep his mouth shut. :)) Anyway, still had fun yesterday even though my bed was practically calling me at home. 2DANIM2 class was fine... We watched this nice animated film and a documentary. CADVIS2 class was... well, I slept at like 7:58 p.m. in class. I didn't know that I was really sleeping cause I thought I was half awake. Imagine my shock when I saw that most of my classmates were gone. No one even bothered to wake me up. :((
Here's the link to the Harry Potter video: Click [here]
And.... here's a song that I've recently discovered awhile ago, even though I've played this game before... I wonder why I've never noticed it until just recently. :|
Ohai, wasn't able to post for like 2 or 3 days now? Anyway, the 2 OR 3 days were uneventful. VERY uneventful, indeed.
Actually, I'm lying. It was FREAKIN tiring. I hate it. Oh, especially yesterday! I was running around Taft whilst wearing high heels and carrying a humongous bag filled with exponentially heavy video equipments. Yeah, that was awesome. I feel like a macho man now, though I do hate the fact that my right shoulder is hurting.
Right, I'm actually in my AUTHOR class right now, but since my prof is letting us work on our final project for like 5 weeks, I'm just procrastinating. I did, however, do a couple of "progress" with my finals layout. Progress is progress.
Carla's out early because she had an OCAthing. I think it's something called BERDE. I don't know. LOL.
I was chatting with August earlier on before he left to have his pictures printed. He gave me this youtube link:
Hefty awesome, yes? I do wonder when Filipino films will be as awesome like this. Even Spielberg is in it. Just a few days back, I watched E.T.(phone home.LOL) on HBO. Classic film, indeed.
Anyway, just saw my midterm grade a couple of minutes ago. Damn, I missed one activity. :| It's apparently worth a couple of points, which drastically pulled my AUTHOR midterm grade down. Nice, sir just had to give an activity when we suddenly decide to cut for the first time. Nice.
Oh, and btw, my AUTHOR final project is how to... bake cookies. I don't know why my prof likes it when it's so girly. Well, I don't know why I'm complaining. As long as he likes it, it's fine. Well, that's all folks.
Today, well, yesterday, was my koko's birthday. I woke up at about 12 noon to see Aunt Lucy and my Ninong downstairs eating their hearts out with the food that my koko and Mommy Ellen prepared in the morning. I had a hefty amount of food to eat. Well, I had a chicken(leg) and spaghetti.
Anyway, went to Greenbelt with my family. Ate at....
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I'm drooling just thinking about the Pepper Steak that I ate earlier on. Damn. Great food is great! Funny that my nephew burnt his tongue, cause he was being too impatient with his food.
Walked around the mall for awhile and we looked at Viro Casa's showcase room.
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Must say that I'm VERY impressed with their designs. I like this one in particular. I'd loooovvveee to cook every day with a kitchen as homey-looking as this! My uncle talked to the manager(?) guy and apparently, they can go to your house and make some measurements, think of the design, negotiate, estimate. Quite nice. I don't know how much all that would cost though. :|
Looked at a few furniture here and there, then, we went to Landmark to buy some groceries. Finally found my Jergen'sShea Butter flavored lotion! It smells really nice!
Went back home at like 7 pm cause my aunt wasn't feeling well. :( Hope she gets better after a night's rest. Apparently, her temperature earlier was 39.4 C. :( *sniff*
Right, I just fully realized that November 26 is just around the corner! Quite excited for it! Really hope that it's already next week. :)) Well, that's about it! Nighty night!
Everyone's stressing over the "Buying a new house"thing. YEY. Look, I know buying a new house isn't a walk in the park. It requires a whole lot of money and right decisions. We've been on a look-out for would-be potential new house and/or a condominium for awhile now, actually. However, it was only a few weeks back when my uncle finally set his sights upon this particular 3-storey house here in Manila. Negotiating with the owner got us a 10% discount on the 8 million flat price he had on the skeleton house. The 10% helps, but it's not enough. I did tell my uncle lots and lots of times that with that amount of money, he could buy a bigger house in the south. A bigger house with a nice little garden, a front porch, nice community, etc. I know he was considering the thought of what I said but, my cousin just had to ruin it all. He's a damn selfish 30+-year old big brat who is currently jobless (and he doesn't even want to have a job)... or a family of his own. Anyway, they're still negotiating on the price. My uncle might be able to bring the price lower cause 8 million is too much for a house like that. Seriously. :|
We went to Robinson's Otis for awhile, and I got to drink a grande-sized Toffee Nut Latte earlier. 4 additional stickers to my collections. A few more and I'll be able to get that Starbuck's planner I've been eyeing for days now.
Everything was fine in Otis. I thought nothing would go wrong today. How terribly wrong I was.
Back at home.... There I was, inking a couple of my owls and minding my own business, when my aunt suddenly started talking about how my cousin and I should talk about the planning of the room, else she won't buy the house. :| Like, what the hell? It came to me as a boasting statement. Seriously. Hell, you have money, I know. But seriously, man? Do you really have to boast on about it? :| I don't get adults sometimes... No, slash that... I don't get adults MOST of the time. We don't see you as bank, dear. You're a family member, not a bank. Do keep that in mind and please stop boasting about your money.
I got into a mini-shouting fight with them when they, the "adults," started on about how I should share rooms with the others. I was like, "WTH are you on?! I WANT MY OWN ROOM. I DEMAND MY OWN ROOM!!!!" Yeah, I lost my cool. And no, I didn't say the "WTH are you on?!" thing. My family wouldn't even understand that. :| I just want my own room. :| I've never had my own room. :| Is it too much to ask??!! T___T I've been sharing rooms with a GUY, for goodness sake! A pig, no less, for the whole of my life! I think I deserve my own room if I'm the one who's gonna work her ass off for her family. I NEED my privacy. I NEED my own room. I know I sound selfish and all, but really, it's hard for a girl of my age to share rooms with a guy and not just any guy. :|
Anyway, had a rough time after that, then I started remembering someone. *le sigh*
Why are you talking to me again like nothing happened? Am I the only one affected? If so, how completely embarrassing it is for me, then. *le sigh*
One day, I shall rent a condo with Carla(lol) and then, 2 guys(like Nick Jonas) will serenade us with this sort of song:
Why hello there, stranger.
It looks like you’ve stumbled upon my little blog here.
Before you start reading,
I believe that it's common sense to know more about the blogger first.
Her name is Monica.
She is now a junior. De La Salle – College of Saint Benilde. 1819 years old.
She loves arts, photography and designing.
Pleased to meet you.♥
This is mypersonal blog. I'll be updating from time to time(hopefully, everyday)
because it's nice to look back and read your own posts once in awhile. ♥
Please DO NOT STEAL any of my photos and such. Thank you. :)
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Painting for Carla:
Might I say that this day was absolutely fun? 
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